Little Talks

Hey! Hey! Hey! 

I don't like walking around this old and empty house. 

So hold my hand, I'll walk with you my dear 

The stairs creak as I sleep, 

it's keeping me awake 

It's the house telling you to close your eyes 

Some days I can't even trust myself. 

It's killing me to see you this way. 

'Cause though the truth may vary 

this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore. 

Hey! Hey! Hey! 

There's an old voice in my head 

that's holding me back 

Well tell her that I miss our little talks. 

Soon it will all be over, buried with our past 

We used to play outside when we were young 

and full of life and full of love. 

Some days I don't know if I am wrong or right

Your mind is playing tricks on you my dear. 

'Cause though the truth may vary 

This ship will carry our bodies safe to shore 

Hey! 

Don't listen to a word I say 

Hey! 

The screams all sound the same. 

Hey! 

Though the truth may vary 

this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore 

You're gone, gone, gone away, 

I watched you disappear. 

All that's left is a ghost of you. 

Now we're torn, torn, torn apart, 

there's nothing we can do, 

Just let me go, we'll meet again soon. 

Now wait, wait, wait for me, please hang around 

I'll see you when I fall asleep. 

Hey!

Don't listen to a word I say 

Hey! 

The screams all sound the same. 

Hey! 

Though the truth may vary 

this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore 

Don't listen to a word I say 

Hey! 

The screams all sound the same. 

Hey! 

Though the truth may vary 

this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Though the truth may vary 

this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Though the truth may vary 

this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Thankful to be given this opportunity to dance an item from my favourite Danzation 2013 segment. 
It has been a great one and a half week with this group of dancers whom I never imagined myself to feel so attached to.
From being awkward and keeping to ourselves to getting to know each other and finally bonding and playing ridiculous mind games and dinner at Al Azhar.
So happy that we were selected to perform for our Principal and we were able to know one another better.
I miss you all already. 
Ryan hinted that we may be performing this item again so......
Looking forward to it ^_^
#TeamColourful #Skittles #YellowItem
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Haven't been blogging for a long time so...
Celebrated my birthday with my bitch at Adventure Cove!
Had St. Marc's for brunch (or was it a snack lol) and oh damn the cappuccino was good.
Wanted to go on more rides but urgh there were so many people. >:
Nevertheless I had a lot of fun!!!
We were starving so badly and we finished our dinner at Poulet at record time.
Went outside to take polaroids but we were so tired we couldn't even change our poses while taking them.
So in the end we left at 8+pm and we were both sleeping on the ride back home, heh.

Pictures of my bitch and I and our dinner!!
Couldn't finish my chicken because I was too tired to chew LOL.
But the mushroom soup was so good oh my god.
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Didn't do much for the entire month though, haha.
I just wasted my life re-watching dramas and blah.
So, When You Who Came From The Stars ended, I started watching Three Days, which starred my favourite Micky Yoochun. ♥
I swear no one can turn me on with their voices like Micky and Kim Soo Hyun (yes even my favourite Jonghyun's voice can't turn me on like Micky and Kim Soo Hyun hahaha).
Every night after the drama airs on SBS I'll just keep refreshing my drama streaming sites like mad for the uploads of the episodes teehee.
So I'm chasing after Three Days, I'm re-watching Sungkyunkwan Scandal, and Channel U is showing Rooftop Prince.
ALL THE MICKY YOOCHUN MADNESS AHHHHHHHHHH ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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And then on the 7th I received a message from Ryan that I'm selected to perform for the principal farewell and the item we are performing was Danzation 2013 Fantasy segment's Yellow item.
My first reaction was : FUCK YES because Fantasy was my favourite segment in Danzation (yes my favourite segment isn't my own Love segment) so I agreed immediately HAHAHA.
Had our first prac on the 10th and we finished learning the entire item in 4 days with formations and finished cleaning the entire item in 1 day (damn this was like Danzation 2013 2.0 hahaha).
We started out really awkward because we only talked to the people we know but I can't remember when we actually just started hanging out together and talking more to one another.
I'll never forget Wednesday 19 March 2014 because that day we were playing so many ridiculously retarded and funny mind games and I never laughed so badly before.
And on that same day we went for supper at Al Azhar!
It was sad that Ryan, Christopher and Andy, Siman and Kathleen couldn't come along though. :(
Hope we will have a next time teehee.
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For the whole of this month I've spent approximately $250 on EXO.
I have no idea why all the fansite masternims decided to publish their photobooks this year and during this month. /sigh
Couldn't resist the temptation and I bought one from lovesick-luhan, one from suaveisland and the reprint of 9493room's.
I wanted to get the reprint of Twinned Poison's Hunhan photobook but I was like............
MAYBE NEXT TIME.
Sad that the reprint version of my Kaisoo's photobooks didn't have most of the original freebies. 
MY KAISOO POSTCARDS AND DUSTCAP T___T
And I bought EXO's Nature Republic flower lip balm.
Bought the EXO-M one only though, and I regretted not getting the EXO-K one too.
But one box costs $60 HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
And I just ordered EXO's First Box.
Well, at least First Box is worth it because it has 4 DVDs and this means I can watch it on repeat mode on my own laptop at home hehehe ♥

And screw SM because SJ-M is having their comeback soon and EXO is coming back next month. Say bye to my money and buy to the albums.

And what the fuck? EXO to spend first half on their comeback and the second half in China promoting?

CAN SM LIKE GIVE THEM A FUCKING BREAK OR SOMETHING.

May 2013 they came back with Wolf, August 2013 they came back with Growl, December 2013 they had Miracles in December.

And what? April 2014 they may be coming back with a bad boy concept? -_______-

And not forgetting the new girl group they're going to debut soon.

Like seriously. -_-

I miss the EXO in 2012 when they were less popular and the fandom was more calm sigh.

I can't stand the amount of xmm EXO fans that just popped out after their Growl comeback oh my god. 

I remember I was at Typo and at the pens section, all the writings I saw on the papers were

"Kai oppaaaa ♥"

"Baekhyun oppa I love you"

"Baekyeol forever"

"Kris ♥"

"HunHan ♥"

And you know what I did? I just rolled my eyes and walked away LOL.

Worse of them all, I see Wolf 88 tees everywhere I go.

LIKE SERIOUSLY.

It gets on my nerves oh god urgh.

Also, I was shopping for things online like mad too.

Damn. >:

I'm highly tempted to buy my Iron Man cap and more face masks sigh.

I was thinking of buying a Kanken but I have no idea what colour I should buy. 

I have three colour choices, I asked three different people, and all three of them gave me different colours as their answers. >___>

So I decided to get it next month and then I realised, EXO is having their come back next month.

Hah, what is saving up money.

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And so here I am, updating about my boring life.

Till the next update,

xoxo

We Own The Night

I know it's been ages since I last blogged.
But I was busy!
Like, fucking busy busy!
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So. For the whole of November I was busy with dance practices for my dance production.
Come to think of it, it still seems so surreal that I actually am part of the big NRA family, which is the CCA I've been dying to get it. To be honest the reason why I study in Ngee Ann is because I want to join NRA. /oops

I had crazy dance schedules and I've actually dancing for 6 days in a week, and on average 7 hours of dance per day.
Which makes it to around 126 hours of dancing in 3 weeks. Oh wow.
No wonder I managed to lose weight. LOL.
Yeah trainings and rehearsals were really crazy. Because as NRA members we have that standard to maintain and a lot of people are actually going to watch our production.Various dance clubs in Polytechnics and Universities like TPDE and Foreign Bodies and all the many many friends and family of dancers. *_*
And it's not helping that NRA's Danzation 2012 is the last dance production of the year (somehow).
So. we've been facing a lot of stress, especially us Scene 3 item dancers.
Because according to our story line, the 6 items are the 'showcase' items for the 6 leads, so naturally all eyes and hopes and demands will be on us.
There have been a few emotional break downs, with me being one of those.
Thinking back, it was so embarrassing. LOL.
Like, running out of the dance studio to cry, and then your seniors will come and comfort you.
But at that moment. Those words of encouragements are just what everyone else needs.
I was always feeling damn stressed during Scene 3 rehearsals because the choreographers really expect a lot from us and rehearsals were always extended, and there was once our dismissal time was near to 11pm.

And then during the last week of November were the crazy stage runs.
I swear they were really crazy.
We had stage blocking, full runs after full runs, full dress runs after that.
IT WAS MADNESS.
I even had to bring a luggage to school because we had costume, hair and make up runs, so I ended up bringing almost all my make up products and hair products. Not forgetting to mention my costumes.
But one thing good about the stage runs was that we get to watch the production from the audiences' point of view!
One super best example: When the external items are having their stage runs, Simin and I never fail to run up and seat from the high ends to watch the show.
We were seating at the middle block of the $20 area. And there was once I sat at the last row of the $20 area. Didn't bother watching it from the $15 people's  point of view, but I didn't go up to the $10 area to watch. :(
I really wanted to know how tiny we look like from so high up. Haha.

Come show day 1, I can really feel the adrenaline rushing in my bloodstream.
It was really great seeing the whole Convention Center filled with so many people coming down to support us.
There were a few problems on day 1 though.
And this made all of us even more determined to put up a better show on day 2.
Come show day 2, I was really damn excited to perform as most of my friends and family will be there watching me.
And as expected, day 2 as a better show than day 1.
Had photo taking session with mah #teampusspuss and we were crying together again.
I really love my #teampusspuss a lot a lot a lot. <3 p="p">
When I first realised that I''ll be in the same item as them, I never knew I would be so bonded with them.
At the beginning I was this awkward silent freshie during prac LOL and my choreographer didn't even knew my name. I wasn't in the facebook group and I didn't even have my item ic's number in my phone.
So I was like this silent bystander throughout LOL.
Until my item ic came and ask me for my number and added me into the group then I started talking to most of them more, and I still continued being awkward with some of them.
As the weeks go by, we had self pracs and practices and then I started to open up to them more.
So we became more bonded until we were having this group htht to share about our feelings of being in this item, then we started to cry while talking and then we gave each other a group hug and I feel that it was from that day onwards that made me feel bonded to #teampusspuss.
And yes, I shed my first and last Danzation tears with them, I cried reading all the looooooooooooooooooooong messages they posted on whatsapp to encourage us and everything, I feel so damn happy whenever I see any of them around in school.
At first I was really afraid that we won't be that close after Danzation, because that's normally what happens. But I know that will never happen.
Because we love each other too much. :')
Every morning I wake up and check whatsapp, I will always see them posting good morning and stuffs like that and it really makes my day.
Especially those few crucial days before Danzation, they were saying how much they will miss all of us and dancing to our item together.
Not forgetting all of our inside jokes.
And Summer. He is like the kindest person ever.
He's so patient with us and he never raised his voice at us before.
He jokes with us, names some of his choreo after weird stuff like asking us to play scissors paper stone with ourselves, chicken wing..
And how he doesn't even know the lyrics to his item song and makes us remember the wrong words, especially how he always call Kelvin as Kevin, mixing some of our names up, and misspelling some of our names..
Oh god hahahaha OTL.
#teampusspuss really gave me many many good memories of my first Danzation with NRA and I really will treasure the friendship between us. <3 p="p">
And then there's #teamyunganjumphigher
I can honestly say that I don't feel so bonded to them as compared to my #teampusspuss.
Perhaps it's because I spent lesser time with them.
Nevertheless, I still love each and everyone of them.
Especially Alyssa. Muacks. <3 p="p">Alyssa is one of those few people that really encourages me a lot.
Like during my break down, she came to me and was consoling me a lot.
And there was a second time when I got pointed out with some other people by my choreographer for not showing enough charisma (or something else like that) in our items, Alyssa gave me this super tight hug and told me to never give up.
Awwwwwwwww I really love Alyssa so much muacks. <3 p="p">And after show 2 I asked her to take polaroid photo with me, she said "aw so sweet, you're really my favourite freshie" to me.
Hahahahahahaha Alyssa.
K back to #teamyunganjumphigher.
Until now although I still am awkward with a few of them, I still feel that closeness between us.
Like how we were supposed to work on portraying our emotions for our item out, and we ended crying together.
And how Amanda will randomly suggest bonding sessions, how we were running around the studios for warm up, how all of us were complaining when we were planking to What Makes You Beautiful, how we had 8am practises on Deepavali....
I had my fun times with them, and although I'm not so bonded with them, I still treasure the moments we spent together laughing, getting scolded, crying, planking, doing clean ups...

And I still have a last group to dedicate to, which I will do it in another post. :)
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STILL ALIVE

I'm back!!
So. I shall continue.
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TOP'S.VOICE.IS.SERIOUSLY.THE.MOST.SEXY.THING.EVER.
The moment he starts to rap/sing, the whole stadium cheers. His low and sexy and seductive voice really can turn you on. Kyaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
But sadly he had a cast on, and he couldn't do much fanservice for us. :'(
During the talk segment, TOP was talking in Korean, but I understood some of it and he was talking about his injury. TT
I think his injury was really hurting him but he keep saying he's alright. :'(
Urgh you bingoo.
Throughout the concert he was smiling to fans, but I bet he was feeling pain from his injury. :'(
/THROWS A MILLION HEARTS TO YOU/
But this sweetie chooses to make us crazy when he keep wiping his sweat with the towel and throwing it to the crowd. AND THEN EVERYONE STARTED SCREAMING. HAHAHA.
He threw his pink specs to the crowd too. ;;
TOP ah why you no cone to the sides more often. :( you are the only Big Bang member that I don't have a Polaroid of. :(
But.. you're so damn perfect that looking that you makes my heart flutter. ♥

ALIVE

So. I went for Big Bang's concert yesterday!
It was really damn good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here is the individual summary of each member!!
1. Seungri 
This sweetie's fanservice skills really damn good sia I swear. When he walk over to my side of the stage, he saw me holding my polaroid and a VIP holding her camera. Seungri then lean against the side and pose for us to take his photo. After that, he smiled and shook his finger, like he was teasing us because cameras were not supposed to be allowed in the concert. And Seungri was one of them who kept coming to our side of the stage to entertain us. During encore he took a panda which was one of the fans' gifts, and he was waving it in front of the camera and it was projected on the big screen. ♥ And Seungri's engrish is too adorable. He kept mentioning the Merlion, and he called our MBS Sky Garden a floating cruise if I didn't remember wrongly. Hahahahaha. 

2. Daesung
I seriously don't get how some people call Daesung the ugliest in Big Bang. I mean, HIS SMILE IS SO BEAUTIFUL IT MAKES PEOPLE GO FUZZY AND WARM. His vocals is really strong and I really enjoyed his singing. Daesung also kept coming to our side of the stage and smiled for us to take photos. And during the encore, he was spraying VIPs with water. He went to spray the mosh pit people, the he came to the side. I got sprayed by his water whoohoo!! 


3.Taeyang
My dear Big Bang bias knows how to make us happy!! He was talking in English most of the time and he just keeps saying Singapore VIP are pretty. :) and he keeps calling G-dragon 'my man GD.' :) Taeyang just keeps throwing his sweaty singlets and clothes to the crowd omgongomg and he was revealing his abs omg. I SAW TAEYANG'S ABS FOR REAL AND I TOOK A POLAROID PICTURE OF TOPLESS TAEYANG. ♥♥♥ Taeyang also came to our side of the stage and entertained us!! He stood there topless and let us take photos. :D Taeyang is really a sweetie. He kept saying how much he loves Singapore during the concert, and he said Singapore VIPs are beautiful. :')


4. G-Dragon
I don't know what to say about him because I think G-Dragon is really awesome. He performs with that swag and he was really cute at the end during encore!! He came to our side, stood there and make some poses, then he jumped up so that people seating at the back can also see him. And G-Dragon's smile is really so damn sexy. During the encore, he was sitting at the side of the stage facing the mosh pit fans and then he lay his back on the floor and started to cycle in the air omg how adorable. G-Dragon is reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally handsome omg. And G-Dragon updated his twitter today with "Singapore >>>>>>>> Seoul,Korea." So sweet right!!!!!!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥


5. TOP
I swear TOP has bad fanservice, or maybe because he is injured. :O He was the only Big Bang members that didn't speak English/engrish during the talking segment. But TOP's rap is really damn awesome omg and his low sexy voice kyaaaaaaaaaa. TOP hardly walked over to my side of the stage, and he only came once during the encore. He walked towards our direction, smiled and wave, then he walked back again. But the funniest thing was then Big Bang members were telling TOP to dance, he danced and then everyone started laughing at him. And TOP is seriously damn good looking. I had the least photos of him because he seldom walked to the sides. :(
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For some highlights!!

They performed quite a few songs before GDTOP went to to prepare for their performance, so Daesung, Taeyang and Seungri were entertaining us.
IT WAS SO ENTERTAINING OMG, SEUNGRI'S ENGRISH IS REALLY REALLY ADORABLE!!!!
And he was asking Daesung "Do you know the Merlion?" And Daesung replied saying "Merlion is my friend." It was so funny!!!!!!!!! Then they were making fun of each other then say Seungri said "The Merlion has no phone, no facebook, no twitter." SO ADORKABLE. Daesung x Merlion otp hahahaha.
And then Taeyang started talking about food, and then chilli crab appears in the convo!! Hahaha. 
And then they had this freestyle rap and beatbox on crabs. XD

Then when GDTOP started performing, they really look like they were in a party. Hehehe. They even lay down on the conveyer belt on the stage. :p TOP didn't give a lot of fanservice because of his injured hand. :( The cast around his hand looked really thick. T____T They should just give TOP a mic set because he just kept using his left hand to hold his mic throughout which can be really tiring. :( and when he did a heart over his head, it looks so funny because his right hand as in a cast and the heart shape just looked weird. T_____T When TOP was talking about his injured hand, Taeyang or GD cue us to say "괜찮아!" to him. :'(
But TOP kept taking the towels to clean his sweat and he threw it to the crowd!!!!!!!! 

Seungri's solo stage was really cool as well, lazor gun!!
And Seungri was just Seungri, exactly like how you see him in variety shows and performances. :)
He's so cheeky and great at making us smile. During the encore, Seungri was videoing GD and the crowd. And GD posed for him also!! ^^
Also, Seungri took one of the Thank You Big Bang banners and he as waving it. GD and him posed for VIPs to take photos also. ^^ GDRI AHHHHHHHHHHHHH ♥
So!!
Seungri came to my side quite a few times and he smiled for us to take photos!
SEUNGRI SMILED AT ME ^^ hehehe because I was holding a polaroid and a VIP in front of me was holding her camera.

Daesung is such an adorable guy. He was just smiling and smiling and smiling ~ ^^
When we waved to Daesung, he waved back and posed for us!!
Then I wave my polaroid and Daesung saw, then he smiled at me again and posed for me to take his polaroid photo!! ^^
And Daesung's vocals were so damn powerful I swear.
He sang all those high notes effortlessly and omg, his fanservice damn good. XD

G-Dragon. What can I say about this perfect guy.
His performance was great, rap was awesome, and he's really shy!! 
His fanservice differs from Seungri and Daesung.
Sucha cutie. :3 
G-Dragon smirked towards my direction toooooooooooo ^^ ♥
SO. FUCKING. PERFECT. ♥

Taeyang.
KYAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!
I SAW TAEYANG'S ABS FOR REAL OMG IT'S SO DAMN DEFINED AND SEXY OH MY GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. AND HE WAS DANCING TOPLESS FOR US TO TAKE PHOTOS.
HIS ENGLISH WAS GREAT.
AND I SAW TAEYANG DANCE WEDDING DRESS LIVE.
I CAN DIE A HAPPY PERSON NOW OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

I will continue again.

YOLO

I'm back!!

This week was a super busy week for me. 

Out of 7 days, I was only at home for 5 days. Hahaha.

YOLO

So....

To start my YOLO week, I had The Chirstieara Programme Camp!!

I reached school at 7.40am to had breakfast.

Saw Matthew walking to my table, turns out that he's the friend Dhaniah was going to meet as well. HAHAHA.

Saw Jasmine with a girl that I found super familiar.

In the end I realised she was my cousin's classmate. LOL.

So we went to ourspace to register and blahblah...

Had the TCP onening ceremony, lunchm then DiSC workshop.

Damn freaking funny omg.

Fast forward to the interesting part.

THERE WERE KPOP MANIACS IN MY GROUP OMG DAEBAK. JEONGMAL WANJEON JINJJA DAEBAK.

Then I was spazzing with Cherry about everything kpop and then Qian Ai and Jingtian were spazzing about Super Junior.

Turns out that Cherry was going to Big Bang's concert too!

HAHAHAHA AND THEN WE WENT TO TAKE PICTURE WITH SOUTH KOREA FLAG.

AWESOME.

So we had dinner, then we had Servant Leadership workshop

It was really interesting!

And then we had Rochor tauhuey.

OH GOSH I MISS ROCHOR TAUHUEY. THE ORIGINAL TAUHUEY. NOT THE MAINSTREAM PUDDING TAUHUEY.

And then we took our things and went to The Loft to check in.

Slept at around 1+am~

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Then second day we had CAC.

Super fun and mind blowing.

Mind blowing level: over 9000.

After dinner we did The Moat.

THE IRRITATING MOAT WHAT THE FUCK.

LOL.

Took all of us 5 hours to finish it. -_____-

Then they gave each of us donuts. :)

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Day Three was rather solemn, as we had to make our declarations and then we are officially students in TCP!

We had free flow of popcorn, candy floss and ice cream as well. :D

Awesome right!

And then my group and I were talking about our eye candy(ies) in TCP camp. OMG EMBARRASSING MAX HAHA. 

So the first three days of my week was spent in camp.

Thursday I had this headache like a hangover. ._. So I didn't go for piano.

Friday, I went for dance.

/le interesting

HAHAHAHAHA.

Was supposed to go for class chalet, but my parents told me to stay at home and go the next day as it was quite late already.

So I went on Saturday noon instead.

On Saturday noon I went to meet Melissa and Wenkai and then we walked to Pasir Ris Park.

Went rollerblading then switched to cycling. 

Then we returned our skates and bikes and went back to our chalet to lepak and play daidee.

Around 5.30pm we started setting up the bbq and blahblah..

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Warning: Excessive use of vulgarities. YOLO.

YOLO1: Because of the demand from my underaged classmates, I went to buy alcohol from this website and had it delivered to our chalet.

YOLO2: 1 Jack Daniel's, 1 Absolute Vodka blue, 1 Absolute Vodka peach and 1 Barcadi's total up to $233.

YOLO3: THE MOTHERFUCKING HARDCORE DRINKING SESSION HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I had to use the word 'motherfucking' because it was seriously hardcore. LOL.

We decided to drink Whiskey first, then we played this drinking game.

Fucking wanted to die omg LOLOL. Jack Daniel's is bleah, but the after taste is nice.

Nearly fucking died drinking that omg thanks to the crazy game Dhaniah suggested.

After whiskey was absolute peach vodka.

Wa fuck seriously we all like some hardcore drinker sia hahaha.

Then after we finished that round. I think most of us who drank are not fucking sane already. Especially that hardcore Char that drank so much. Haha. 

I went out to cook chicken wings. AT 1AM. -.-

LOL. 

I swear I was sane. I WAS FUCKING SANE. Just that my head was aching like some mad shit. HAHAHA.

I still could bbq chicken wings LOL.

And then Charmaine was inside the room going crazy and laughing and what, Eileen was randomly attacking people asking for more vodka, and Boon was totally guailan-ing all of us LOL.

Among those who drank, only Brandon, Jeremy and I were sane. Hahaha.

And then outside Jeremy keep taking my frog fan and fan me, keep telling me "Rachel 快点回来，我知道你一定可以的."

And then I was like "WHAT DOESN'T KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONGER HAHAHAHAHAHAHA" 

He keep making me eat otah, chicken wing, drink green tea, drink water, and drink melted margarine. Haha.

Caring bro is caring haha. 

And then Jeremy was like, "Wa Rachel, I didn't know your alcohol tolerance so good. Next time go drinking must go with you. Our pattern sama sama one." And then I was like, "DRINKING BRO YO HAHA HI 5"

I was still sane okay. LOL.

Melissa was being my support, then after that she took over the cooking and I went to eat chicken wings. Then she took ice and tried to cool me down because my body was BURNINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. Then she told me to drink more water.

After gulping down water, I vomitted a fucking fountain and my puke fucking smells of the fucking smelly alcohol. Wa fuck LOL. Then I was outside, asking Chong Yong to ask me questions so that they really believe me when I say I'm sane.

So, Chong Yong asked me things like 'How many members are there in Big Bang?', 'How many members are there in SHINee?' , 'How many people are there in our class?'

I TOLD YOU GUYS ALREADY I'M SANE, BUT YOU ALL DON'T BELIEVE ME. HAHAHA.

And then I went in the room because they told me to sleep. Then Brandon's phone was playing Gangnam Style.

OMG HAHAHA IN THE END I WAS DANCING TO GANGNAM STYLE, AND AFTER I FINISH DANCING I DROPPED DEAD ON THE BED. 

LOL. I think those inside the room got a shock sia haha, they were saying I drunk still can dance Gangnam Style. Hahaha, then I remember Brandon saying that he want join in and dance together haha. YOLO.

So I dropped dead on the bed, Brandon's phone was playing some English song, then after that I don't know  why but Gangnam Style decide to play again, and as if on cue, I rose from the bed wanting to dance. OMG HAHAHA YOLO SIA SERIOUSLY.

But again, I was SANE.

Then I fucking vomitted the second time, then I told Mel to take my medicated oil and pass to me. Then I tried drinking more water because I feel that I'm gonna vomit again. But it turned out to be a false alarm.

So, I lay down on the bed again. But after a while, I sat up and fucking vomitted again. And then I told Yanleng to support me to the toilet to wash my face. 

I FUCKING SAW MY DRUNK FACE LOL RED LIKE SOME FUCKING PORK LIVER LIKE THAT OMG WTF AND MY EYES WERE LIKE ZOMBIFIED LOL WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK HAHAHA. I should've asked someone to take photo. LOL. After wetting my face I could finally sleep.

Woke up at hourly interval, and it so happens that I heard the dead drunk and the super high drunk talking and being crazy. Damn fucking hilarious omg. 

And then I officially woke up at 4+am near 5am. Hahaha.

I'M STRONG K PEOPLE, I'M JUST A SANE DRINKER WITH A BAD HEADACHE. HAHAHAHA.

Went to bathe, ate Macs breakfast.

I wanted to eat breakfast deluxe, but I was afraid that I will puke everything out. Haha.

In the end, the security people said we were talking too loudly and he told us to go somewhere else to talk. So we went to Macs to eat and lepak.

I ended up buying ice milo and hashbrown again.

LOL.

Went back via MRT, I was sleeping all the way back until Buona Vista when I woke up. Haha.

I swear I will never let myself get so wasted like last night hahaha.

And also we should mix correctly. Hahaha.

LESSON LEARNT: YOLO.

Haha.

Okay.

Next week I'm going to be busy too!

HI Club camp from 25-27 September, dance on 28 September.

And not forgetting................

BIG BANG ALIVE WORLD TOUR SINGAPORE!!!!!!!

I'M SO DAMN BLOODY EXCITED I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THEM LIVE.

I WISH THEY WILL GRAB MY POLAROID. :D

But also, SM Town Singapore tickets selling on that day too. I don't have enough money ㅠㅠ

I really want to go sia. SHINee, SNSD, Super Junior, f(x), DBSK, BoA and EXO. :(

My yeobo and girlfriends and unnies and jakiya and namja chingu and namjas and oppas and bbs. :(

Why the fuck is SM Town on a Friday. :/

19

The number 19 has recently been a very significant number for me.

On 19 march was my first Dance For Fun practice where I met half my crew for the first time ever in my life.
On the day itself I met Priya, Zack and Brendan for lunch. Awkward max man, come to think of it.
And then we started talking and then when I went in to the room and then we learnt the dance and oh lol. And then I met Ariel, Rubecca, Elton and Mavis. Awkward max sia hahaha. I didn't even talk to Mavis or Rubecca in the beginning. It was only until when Fredy arranged our formations and Mavis was my mirror throughout the entire dance then we started to talk and become closer. For Rubecca..... we weren't even close LOL. Until the day when Brandon and I were dancing kpop in the class for everyone to see, and then Rubecca came to me and asked me if I know how to dance Troublemaker. And from that day onwards I became her Hyunseung and she became my Hyuna.

19 April is a day that I will never forget in my entire life. The excitement felt during competition day, the nervous feeling before our turn to compete, the elated feeling when we got best costume, and the fucked up drama when we got 2nd.......

That was the day where I experienced how does it feel like to experience 2 extreme moods. In this case it was winning best costume and failing to defend the championship. Till today I still feel a little tinge of regret when I think of it, but oh well, it's all over now! What I've learnt from this competition is really worth more than that damn 2nd Place award we got.

And I made really awesome friends through this whole experience. One example, I was originally not very close to Riho and she was always with her clique of friends. But after my MC and I returned to school on Wednesday, I went to find Riho and then she gave me a bigggg hug and said she missed me. :') And I really like how my dear siblings Elton, Riho and Xueqi call me Xin Jie. Awhhh. :')

And on 19 May, I'm here struggling with my essay.
2 Assignments due on one of my favourite days of the year. And I'm not even done with one of it.
And I'm currently suffering from muscle ache from NRA training.
Oh well. Abs and muscles here I come~
Did stretching and strength training today. Whoohoo.
Orange's warm up is so Chinese Dance-ish.
Reminds me of how Zhu Lao Shi used to sit on me when we did side split and we had to lie our body flat on the ground.
I really need to work on my head isolation. I suck at it man.
And I need to practise the crunches and push ups they taught. My fitness level is really horrible.
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I'm gonna have a slightly more relaxed timetable next week. Because Harasha and Dr Juliet are not free during their lesson, we're gonna have make up lessons and I end at 1pm on Tuesday-Thursday!
But I still have CCAs.

And speaking of CCA. I better ask Zack to teach me lesson 2 of what we learnt in Hi Club because I didn't go.
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Shall update again soon. :)

Regret

It's May.
The first 4 months of 2012 zoomed by already.
And I think I really lived my first 4 months of 2012 in regret.
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The first regret came about during the collection of o level results. Of course, my first reaction to my results were shock and delight. But the more I stares at my results, the more I could feel that little tinge of regret because I know that I could have done a lot more better than what I got.

The second regret came about during the release of posting results. When I saw that I was being posted to Psychology Studies, my first reaction was disappointment. I was really disappointed that I didn't get into Arts Business Management- my dream poly course ever since Ngee Ann started it in 2009. I've been dying to get into that course since it started, because I'm totally an Arts person. I dance, I do music, I like painting and photography, and I grew up in an environment where I was constantly surrounded by different forms of arts. So when posting results came out, I was really heartbroken to see that I got in to Psychology Studies. Not that I wasn't interested in Psychology, but my passion for it wasn't as strong as the passion I have for the Arts. I have never seen myself as a psychologist, so I really didn't know what could I expect myself to become in that course. But in the end I decided to go for it.

My third regret came when my paternal grandma passed away. I have never really seen her as my grandmother because since young, I always feel that she doesn't dote on me as much as my other cousins. My studies weren't that spectacular, my behavior wasn't that fantastic and I wasn't as lovable or obedient as my other cousins. So I really hated Chinese New Year because I don't like visiting my paternal relatives, because they were always the ones judging me and comparing me to my other cousins. But it was only when my grandmother passed away then I knew what she actually meant to me. I've learnt the piano for many years, but I have never performed a piece for her before. I dance, but she has never watched me performance before, except for my kindergarten graduation. So during the last day of her funeral service, these thoughts kept coming to mind and I really regretted not being a good grand daughter. It's always like this. People only treasure things or people when they leave. Isn't that a bit too late?

My fourth regret was Dance For Fun 2012. I don't know why, but I really feel that tinge of guilt and regret on that day when they released the results. I know I already did my best, but I just can't help feeling guilty and regretful for not helping our school to defend the Championship. I felt really bad, because I waste feeling well a day before the competition. And I wasn't there to mark my positions. Even though winning Second and Best Costume was already a great achievement, I can't help it but feel guilty that we didn't defend the Championship title. I felt like I disappointed my seniors and there was this "wtf why did I have to fall sick on the day before the competition and affect everything" feeling when we got our results. Firdaus saw me crying and came to comfort me. But he's the reason why I cried even more badly because I really look up to him, and I felt like I disappointed him. He said I already did my best, but I feel that my best wasn't enough for HMS to win champion again.
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I hope that the remaining 8 months of 2012 will stop being a bitch and please be nicer to me, because if more shit happens, I really cannot take it anymore.

It's only the 3rd week of school and I'm dying. How am I going to survive 1 year in these modules, and 3 years in this course?

I really don't know.
If only I was a year younger, I can screw up these modules and transfer to Arts Business Management. But the sad thing is, I can't.
I cannot afford to waste another year. It will only be to my disadvantage.
I came to Ngee Ann for 2 reasons. One, for Arts Business Management and two, for NRA. Since the first one couldn't be fulfilled and I achieved my second one, I should be contented.

With that, all I can do now is to work hard, chill out, and breathe. I can work hard on my assignments, chill out with my HMS DFF'12 friends, but in the end, it all depends on me.

Bad

Poly has officially begun..
People who said poly life is very slack can go and die manzxc.
First week of school was enough to murder me.
I think without my HMS DFF'12 friends with me I may have started to hate school.

I really miss dancing with those awesome people. :(
Miss those countless hours dedicated to dance practices, the dinner sessions, staying back after practise to polish up steps, crying session, squeezing in the lift, going home together, gossiping, competition day itself....
I really love you, my HMS DFF'12 family. ♥
My siblings, and awesome seniors.
Thanks for all the wonderful memories. :')
You people are really going to be my lifelong friends and our friendship forged will never end.
And of course the 24 of us siblings!
You people are going to be friends that I can definitely depend on for the next 3 years of my poly life.
With all the random dinner sessions we are going to have, we will definitely be more crazy and more close than ever.
In fact, I find that we are so close to the extend that I treasure you people more than my classmates.

And to my 4 awesome seniors, aka Firdaus daddy, Meiqi mummy, sugar daddy Joseph and the one and only sexy uncle Shaun.
YOU FOUR REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY AWESOME PEOPLE.
Thanks for all the love and concern for your 24 children and we will never forget you all.
Must come and see us more often eh!! Especially Firdaus and Shaun, since you 2 are the oldest and have already graduated. Must do your part as a parent and uncle!
And sugar daddy, you should meet up with us once a week because walking past you and saying hello occasionally isn't enough. :P
And mummy. You should meet you with us too!! Really miss you a lot!!

HMS DFF'12 FAMILY.
I LOVE YOU.
♥
WOW, FANTASTIC BABY!
CUZ YOU FEEL LIKE PARADISE, AND I NEED A VACATION TONIGHT. IF I SAID I WANT YOUR BODY NOW, WOULD YOU HOLD IT AGAINST ME?
HMS HOH AH, ZAI AH, STEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAADY AH!

Chingay

Chingay is over!

I miss my group so much now. :(

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Haha yesterday at out holding area, the people at the other side suddenly play 2pm Hands Up, everyone there jitao fangirl immediately and do the hand movement haha!

then after that Terry, Xenia and I screaming 'SNSD!!!!!' then after a while they played The Boys. MV version some more!!! Then we over there screaming and singing.

Then after The Boys end liao we screaming '2NE1!!!!!!!!' then after that they play I Don't Care and Clap Your Hands omgomgomg.

And then a while later they played Mr Simple!!!!!!! MV version some more omggg.

Terry keep saying 'SNSD!!!!!' then Xenia and I keep 'BIG BANG!!!!!!! SHINee!!!!!' Then we suddenly sing Tonight, Love Song, Noona Neomu Yeppeo, Juliette, JoJo, RDD, Lucifer, Hello.. wahaha

Our performance was awesome! Must watch on tv later. ^__^

Water splashing time in the pool, random shufflin, party, spotting for cameras to take photos, group hug with b10, cheered for our trainers and block ics, screamed and shouted keke.

I miss chingay already.. :(

Waiting for the post chingay celebration ♥

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