We Own The Night

I know it's been ages since I last blogged.
But I was busy!
Like, fucking busy busy!
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So. For the whole of November I was busy with dance practices for my dance production.
Come to think of it, it still seems so surreal that I actually am part of the big NRA family, which is the CCA I've been dying to get it. To be honest the reason why I study in Ngee Ann is because I want to join NRA. /oops

I had crazy dance schedules and I've actually dancing for 6 days in a week, and on average 7 hours of dance per day.
Which makes it to around 126 hours of dancing in 3 weeks. Oh wow.
No wonder I managed to lose weight. LOL.
Yeah trainings and rehearsals were really crazy. Because as NRA members we have that standard to maintain and a lot of people are actually going to watch our production.Various dance clubs in Polytechnics and Universities like TPDE and Foreign Bodies and all the many many friends and family of dancers. *_*
And it's not helping that NRA's Danzation 2012 is the last dance production of the year (somehow).
So. we've been facing a lot of stress, especially us Scene 3 item dancers.
Because according to our story line, the 6 items are the 'showcase' items for the 6 leads, so naturally all eyes and hopes and demands will be on us.
There have been a few emotional break downs, with me being one of those.
Thinking back, it was so embarrassing. LOL.
Like, running out of the dance studio to cry, and then your seniors will come and comfort you.
But at that moment. Those words of encouragements are just what everyone else needs.
I was always feeling damn stressed during Scene 3 rehearsals because the choreographers really expect a lot from us and rehearsals were always extended, and there was once our dismissal time was near to 11pm.

And then during the last week of November were the crazy stage runs.
I swear they were really crazy.
We had stage blocking, full runs after full runs, full dress runs after that.
IT WAS MADNESS.
I even had to bring a luggage to school because we had costume, hair and make up runs, so I ended up bringing almost all my make up products and hair products. Not forgetting to mention my costumes.
But one thing good about the stage runs was that we get to watch the production from the audiences' point of view!
One super best example: When the external items are having their stage runs, Simin and I never fail to run up and seat from the high ends to watch the show.
We were seating at the middle block of the $20 area. And there was once I sat at the last row of the $20 area. Didn't bother watching it from the $15 people's  point of view, but I didn't go up to the $10 area to watch. :(
I really wanted to know how tiny we look like from so high up. Haha.

Come show day 1, I can really feel the adrenaline rushing in my bloodstream.
It was really great seeing the whole Convention Center filled with so many people coming down to support us.
There were a few problems on day 1 though.
And this made all of us even more determined to put up a better show on day 2.
Come show day 2, I was really damn excited to perform as most of my friends and family will be there watching me.
And as expected, day 2 as a better show than day 1.
Had photo taking session with mah #teampusspuss and we were crying together again.
I really love my #teampusspuss a lot a lot a lot. <3 p="p">
When I first realised that I''ll be in the same item as them, I never knew I would be so bonded with them.
At the beginning I was this awkward silent freshie during prac LOL and my choreographer didn't even knew my name. I wasn't in the facebook group and I didn't even have my item ic's number in my phone.
So I was like this silent bystander throughout LOL.
Until my item ic came and ask me for my number and added me into the group then I started talking to most of them more, and I still continued being awkward with some of them.
As the weeks go by, we had self pracs and practices and then I started to open up to them more.
So we became more bonded until we were having this group htht to share about our feelings of being in this item, then we started to cry while talking and then we gave each other a group hug and I feel that it was from that day onwards that made me feel bonded to #teampusspuss.
And yes, I shed my first and last Danzation tears with them, I cried reading all the looooooooooooooooooooong messages they posted on whatsapp to encourage us and everything, I feel so damn happy whenever I see any of them around in school.
At first I was really afraid that we won't be that close after Danzation, because that's normally what happens. But I know that will never happen.
Because we love each other too much. :')
Every morning I wake up and check whatsapp, I will always see them posting good morning and stuffs like that and it really makes my day.
Especially those few crucial days before Danzation, they were saying how much they will miss all of us and dancing to our item together.
Not forgetting all of our inside jokes.
And Summer. He is like the kindest person ever.
He's so patient with us and he never raised his voice at us before.
He jokes with us, names some of his choreo after weird stuff like asking us to play scissors paper stone with ourselves, chicken wing..
And how he doesn't even know the lyrics to his item song and makes us remember the wrong words, especially how he always call Kelvin as Kevin, mixing some of our names up, and misspelling some of our names..
Oh god hahahaha OTL.
#teampusspuss really gave me many many good memories of my first Danzation with NRA and I really will treasure the friendship between us. <3 p="p">
And then there's #teamyunganjumphigher
I can honestly say that I don't feel so bonded to them as compared to my #teampusspuss.
Perhaps it's because I spent lesser time with them.
Nevertheless, I still love each and everyone of them.
Especially Alyssa. Muacks. <3 p="p">Alyssa is one of those few people that really encourages me a lot.
Like during my break down, she came to me and was consoling me a lot.
And there was a second time when I got pointed out with some other people by my choreographer for not showing enough charisma (or something else like that) in our items, Alyssa gave me this super tight hug and told me to never give up.
Awwwwwwwww I really love Alyssa so much muacks. <3 p="p">And after show 2 I asked her to take polaroid photo with me, she said "aw so sweet, you're really my favourite freshie" to me.
Hahahahahahaha Alyssa.
K back to #teamyunganjumphigher.
Until now although I still am awkward with a few of them, I still feel that closeness between us.
Like how we were supposed to work on portraying our emotions for our item out, and we ended crying together.
And how Amanda will randomly suggest bonding sessions, how we were running around the studios for warm up, how all of us were complaining when we were planking to What Makes You Beautiful, how we had 8am practises on Deepavali....
I had my fun times with them, and although I'm not so bonded with them, I still treasure the moments we spent together laughing, getting scolded, crying, planking, doing clean ups...

And I still have a last group to dedicate to, which I will do it in another post. :)
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