鹿晗。

My dearest Luhan, happy birthday to you!

Two years have past since you debuted with EXO. Yet, you're still the same baby-faced guy who loves playing soccer, takes good care of the members, considerate and caring, hates being called pretty, insists you're a manly man but screams for Kyungsoo in the haunted house, has a severe fear of heights, humble, has a passion for performing, and the one who never fails to steal my breath away.

In the past, you would not make a lot of eye contact with the camera while performing because you were shy and nervous. Although you still have this habit to look at the floor while performing now, I'm happy to see how you have more confidence in front of the camera now.

I love how your eyes never fail to show each and every of your emotions. The fear in your eyes when you need to go somewhere high, the tears in your eyes welling up but refusing to drop when you cry, the wrinkles around your eyes whenever you're laughing and smiling, the sincerity in your eyes when performing a ballad, the charisma in your eyes when performing a dance track.

I love how you can pull off any hairstyle and hair colour thrown to you. Your golden hair when you were a trainee, brown hair when EXO debuted with MAMA, light fluffy brown halfway through promotions, turning blonde during EXO's long hiatus while preparing for Wolf, red hair when EXO cameback with Wolf, having orange hair halfway through Wolf, lilac hair for Growl, having white hair halfway through Growl till the of Growl promotions,  dark brown hair for Miracles in December, and now turning back to brown again for Overdose.

I really hope you can have a proper birthday celebration next year because in 2013 and 2014 incidents happened a few days before your birthday. Nevertheless, hope you have enjoyed today and may you and EXO continue to grow and dominate the world. Once again, happy birthday to you and thank you for being an important part of my life. ♥ 我的心已被你这只鹿牵走了。

And this song, is dedicated to you.
生日快乐，我的爱。♥

好像什么都不懂的
一个孩子一样纯真
重生
那个美丽的瞬间

双眼闭上又睁开
害怕这一切只是梦
留恋我就真诚站在你面前
渴望得到你视线

只是想和你一起走
两个人用同样的步调
协奏 一次就足够

当我乘坐着风
在你的世界降落
白色的风
在你身边环绕着
你问我来自哪里
笑着回答是秘密
只要是你和我
一起走下去
天堂在随时和随地

对我来说你比天使
还灿烂耀眼
如果有谁对你不义
我一定不允许

仿佛第一次进入伊甸
园的忐忑不安
让我每天只是望着你
心里一直想着你

琐碎的尘埃和沙砾
我不会让那些伤害靠近你
永远守护你 I’m eternally Love

为你挡下狂风
身为你的守护者
永远有我
就算世界都冷漠
每次你痛苦委屈
为你会把泪擦去
如果是你和我
不管在哪里
天堂是随时和随地

爱上你的我
再也没有地方可回头
翅膀已经不再拥有
永恒的生命被夺走 Oh No
可我依然感觉幸福唯一的理由
因为我的永恒
现在就是你 Eternally Love

当我乘坐着风
在你的世界降落
白色的风
在你身边环绕着
你问我来自哪里
笑着回答是秘密
只要是你和我
一起走下去
天堂在随时和随地.

Little Talks

Hey! Hey! Hey! 

I don't like walking around this old and empty house. 

So hold my hand, I'll walk with you my dear 

The stairs creak as I sleep, 

it's keeping me awake 

It's the house telling you to close your eyes 

Some days I can't even trust myself. 

It's killing me to see you this way. 

'Cause though the truth may vary 

this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore. 

Hey! Hey! Hey! 

There's an old voice in my head 

that's holding me back 

Well tell her that I miss our little talks. 

Soon it will all be over, buried with our past 

We used to play outside when we were young 

and full of life and full of love. 

Some days I don't know if I am wrong or right

Your mind is playing tricks on you my dear. 

'Cause though the truth may vary 

This ship will carry our bodies safe to shore 

Hey! 

Don't listen to a word I say 

Hey! 

The screams all sound the same. 

Hey! 

Though the truth may vary 

this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore 

You're gone, gone, gone away, 

I watched you disappear. 

All that's left is a ghost of you. 

Now we're torn, torn, torn apart, 

there's nothing we can do, 

Just let me go, we'll meet again soon. 

Now wait, wait, wait for me, please hang around 

I'll see you when I fall asleep. 

Hey!

Don't listen to a word I say 

Hey! 

The screams all sound the same. 

Hey! 

Though the truth may vary 

this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore 

Don't listen to a word I say 

Hey! 

The screams all sound the same. 

Hey! 

Though the truth may vary 

this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Though the truth may vary 

this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Though the truth may vary 

this ship will carry our bodies safe to shore

Thankful to be given this opportunity to dance an item from my favourite Danzation 2013 segment. 
It has been a great one and a half week with this group of dancers whom I never imagined myself to feel so attached to.
From being awkward and keeping to ourselves to getting to know each other and finally bonding and playing ridiculous mind games and dinner at Al Azhar.
So happy that we were selected to perform for our Principal and we were able to know one another better.
I miss you all already. 
Ryan hinted that we may be performing this item again so......
Looking forward to it ^_^
#TeamColourful #Skittles #YellowItem
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Haven't been blogging for a long time so...
Celebrated my birthday with my bitch at Adventure Cove!
Had St. Marc's for brunch (or was it a snack lol) and oh damn the cappuccino was good.
Wanted to go on more rides but urgh there were so many people. >:
Nevertheless I had a lot of fun!!!
We were starving so badly and we finished our dinner at Poulet at record time.
Went outside to take polaroids but we were so tired we couldn't even change our poses while taking them.
So in the end we left at 8+pm and we were both sleeping on the ride back home, heh.

Pictures of my bitch and I and our dinner!!
Couldn't finish my chicken because I was too tired to chew LOL.
But the mushroom soup was so good oh my god.
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Didn't do much for the entire month though, haha.
I just wasted my life re-watching dramas and blah.
So, When You Who Came From The Stars ended, I started watching Three Days, which starred my favourite Micky Yoochun. ♥
I swear no one can turn me on with their voices like Micky and Kim Soo Hyun (yes even my favourite Jonghyun's voice can't turn me on like Micky and Kim Soo Hyun hahaha).
Every night after the drama airs on SBS I'll just keep refreshing my drama streaming sites like mad for the uploads of the episodes teehee.
So I'm chasing after Three Days, I'm re-watching Sungkyunkwan Scandal, and Channel U is showing Rooftop Prince.
ALL THE MICKY YOOCHUN MADNESS AHHHHHHHHHH ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
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And then on the 7th I received a message from Ryan that I'm selected to perform for the principal farewell and the item we are performing was Danzation 2013 Fantasy segment's Yellow item.
My first reaction was : FUCK YES because Fantasy was my favourite segment in Danzation (yes my favourite segment isn't my own Love segment) so I agreed immediately HAHAHA.
Had our first prac on the 10th and we finished learning the entire item in 4 days with formations and finished cleaning the entire item in 1 day (damn this was like Danzation 2013 2.0 hahaha).
We started out really awkward because we only talked to the people we know but I can't remember when we actually just started hanging out together and talking more to one another.
I'll never forget Wednesday 19 March 2014 because that day we were playing so many ridiculously retarded and funny mind games and I never laughed so badly before.
And on that same day we went for supper at Al Azhar!
It was sad that Ryan, Christopher and Andy, Siman and Kathleen couldn't come along though. :(
Hope we will have a next time teehee.
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For the whole of this month I've spent approximately $250 on EXO.
I have no idea why all the fansite masternims decided to publish their photobooks this year and during this month. /sigh
Couldn't resist the temptation and I bought one from lovesick-luhan, one from suaveisland and the reprint of 9493room's.
I wanted to get the reprint of Twinned Poison's Hunhan photobook but I was like............
MAYBE NEXT TIME.
Sad that the reprint version of my Kaisoo's photobooks didn't have most of the original freebies. 
MY KAISOO POSTCARDS AND DUSTCAP T___T
And I bought EXO's Nature Republic flower lip balm.
Bought the EXO-M one only though, and I regretted not getting the EXO-K one too.
But one box costs $60 HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
And I just ordered EXO's First Box.
Well, at least First Box is worth it because it has 4 DVDs and this means I can watch it on repeat mode on my own laptop at home hehehe ♥

And screw SM because SJ-M is having their comeback soon and EXO is coming back next month. Say bye to my money and buy to the albums.

And what the fuck? EXO to spend first half on their comeback and the second half in China promoting?

CAN SM LIKE GIVE THEM A FUCKING BREAK OR SOMETHING.

May 2013 they came back with Wolf, August 2013 they came back with Growl, December 2013 they had Miracles in December.

And what? April 2014 they may be coming back with a bad boy concept? -_______-

And not forgetting the new girl group they're going to debut soon.

Like seriously. -_-

I miss the EXO in 2012 when they were less popular and the fandom was more calm sigh.

I can't stand the amount of xmm EXO fans that just popped out after their Growl comeback oh my god. 

I remember I was at Typo and at the pens section, all the writings I saw on the papers were

"Kai oppaaaa ♥"

"Baekhyun oppa I love you"

"Baekyeol forever"

"Kris ♥"

"HunHan ♥"

And you know what I did? I just rolled my eyes and walked away LOL.

Worse of them all, I see Wolf 88 tees everywhere I go.

LIKE SERIOUSLY.

It gets on my nerves oh god urgh.

Also, I was shopping for things online like mad too.

Damn. >:

I'm highly tempted to buy my Iron Man cap and more face masks sigh.

I was thinking of buying a Kanken but I have no idea what colour I should buy. 

I have three colour choices, I asked three different people, and all three of them gave me different colours as their answers. >___>

So I decided to get it next month and then I realised, EXO is having their come back next month.

Hah, what is saving up money.

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And so here I am, updating about my boring life.

Till the next update,

xoxo

It Has To Be You

Dear Yesung,
Happy birthday to you soon-to-be old man!
Enjoy your last year as a 20's before you start your 30's next year!

Hope the army has been well for you.
It's been 110 days since you left for the army.
You wouldn't believe how shocked I was when I heard the news that you were going to enlist in the army in such a short time and not participating in SS5.
Leeteuk's gone, Heechul's gone as well, Kangin just came back, and now you're leaving.........
Do you know how badly I cried watching Super Junior's From U performance on Music Core?
Because every time I see you and Leeteuk's smiling faces I can't help it but miss you all so damn badly. 
Gonna miss hearing you and your power packed vocals, you and your adlibs, you and your weird dancing, you and your obsession with philtrums, you and your turtles, you and your interactions with Ryeowook...........

• 
  
  I went for SS5sg, and there was a ballad performance by them.
  I can't help but wonder how the performances would have differed if you were there singing as well, and what super hero you would dress up as, and if K.R.Y would have a special segment for us.......
  And you retweeting all the pictures of your fan project of us holding your name banner.
  
  

  Singapore ELF!! i miss u a lot and want to see you ^^ pic.twitter.com/Mxgn8KQcK7
  — Yesung (@shfly3424) July 6, 2013

  Do you know at that time what was I doing? 

  I was queuing up for mosh.

  And do you know how happy I was when Ryeowook sang your part in It's You? He even did yor kneeling down pose during the adlibs. /sigh my Yewook feels

  
  

  As I write this post, I'm listening to your song, It Has To Be You.

  
  
  Today, i wander in my memory
  I’m pasing around on the end of this way
  You’re still holding me tightly, even though i can’t see you any more
  I’m losing my way again
  
  
  I’m praying to the sky i want see you and hold you more
  that i want to see you and hold you more
  
  
  It can’t be if it’s not you
  i can’t be without you
  it’s okay if i’m hurt for a day and a year like this
  it’s fine even if my heart’s hurts
  yes because i’m just in love with you
  
  
  i cannot send you away one more time
  i can’t live without you
  
  
  it can’t be if it’s not you
  i can’t be without you
  it’s okay if i’m hurt for a day and a year like this
  it’s fine even if my heart’s hurts
  yes because i’m just in love with you
  
  
  my bruised heart
  is screaming to me to find you
  where are you?
  can’t you hear my voice?
  to me…
  
  
  if i live my life again
  if i’m born over and over again
  i can’t live without you for a day
  You’re the one i will keep
  you’re the one i will love
  i’m…yes because i’m happy enough if i could be with you

Remember when you, Heechul, Shindong and Leeteuk were on 5000 Questions with Super Junior, you all were doing the psychological tests, and the psychologist said you had many insecurities and inferiority? 

All I want to tell you is that you are awesome. You're such a great hyung to your dongsaengs and they listen to you. You have such great vocal skills that we call you the King of OST. You're such a filial son and great hyung to Jongjin. ELF love you like crazy and SJ loves you like crazy too.

And these 3 trends about you were trending on twitter today. #HappyBirthdayKingOfSelca, #생일축하해요김종운 and #HappyYesungDay.

Although Heenim and 10, you had 3 okay. Heh.

Take care of yourself in the army, continue to please us with selcas, and I love you many many.

See you in SS7. 

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It's #Growl5thWin you sexy mofos.

You 12 babies have done so damn well. :')

And Luhan.

PLS TELL ME YOU DID PIERCE YOUR EARS.

YOU HAD THEM ON M COUNTDOWN YESTERDAY BUT WHY DID YOUR EARRINGS DISAPPEAR ON MUBANK TODAY. >:(

AND YOU KIDS NEED TO STOP PUTTING YOUR FINGERS INTO PEOPLE'S EARS WHEN THEY ARE GIVING THEIR THANK YOU SPEECH. /COUGHS BAEKHYUN COUGHS/

So I didn't do anything much today, except watching A Song For You from EXO, Music Bank, X2 and Saturday Night Life. And now I'm wasting my time in front of the computer again, u___________u

I keep thinking there's something for me to do on Saturday, but I cannot remember. ._.

It's 2.32AM now and I'm hungry........ 

Happy birthday

Lee Hyukjae.
My very very first kpop bias.
The first person in Super Junior that I set my eyes on.

The one with the gummy smile.
The one with chocolate abs.
The one with the biggest appetite in Super Junior.
The one with the dirtiest hygiene.
The one who is the most stingy with money.
The one who doesn't smoke or drink.
The one who is best friends with Xiah Junsu.
The one who loves One Piece and Dragonball.
The one who loves strawberries.
The one who loves Donghae.
The one who was originally awkward with Heechul.
The one who hates seafood.
The one who cries easily.
The one who loves Choco.
The one who loves soccer.
The one who loves silver.
The one who loves to be called anchovy, monkey, jewel boy.
The one who is Super Junior's dancing machine.
The one who writes the rap of Super Junior songs.
The one who is afraid of bugs.
The one who loves to dance.
The one who is introduced as 'special' and 'precious'.
The one who has a stage name called Eunhyuk.
The one who was born on 4 April 1986.
The one who stole my heart away. ♡

Kim

HAPPY BIRTHDAY INFINITE'S VISUAL L KIM MYUNG SOO,THE MOST HANDSOME LOOKING 92-LINER, DERPSOO, TROLLER ♥
MAY INFINITE CONTINUE TO RECEIVE LOTS OF LOVE!!
WAITING FOR INFINITE COMEBACK ♥












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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U-KISS AWESOME RAPPER ELI KIM ♥
THE ONE WHO ALWAYS TROLLS US KISSMES ON TWITTER, THE ONE WHO LOVES RED BULL, THE ONE WHO CAN IMITATE A PIGEON.
MAY U-KISS CONTINUE TO EXCEL AND RECEIVE A LOT OF LOVE ♥
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김태연

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE ADORKABLE KID LEADER OF GIRLS GENERATION 김태연 ♥♥♥♥







I love your dorkiness, your weird ahjumma laugh, your byuntae-ness, your awesome voice ♥
Five years ago you yelled "난 할수 있다!"
and you made it.
Kim Tae Yeon. Best leader of Girls' Generation. ♥
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Had NP25 at Teck Lih's house with npsd on 8 March.
Super great!!
Going for medical check up on 9 March. Sian. I don't get why psychology students have to undergo full body check up zzz.
Going to get my laptop on 10th!! Cannot wait!!

생일

I'M OFFICIALLY 18 MUAHAHAHA.
This means I can buy 4D, toto, alcohol, drivr, watch m18 movies and who knows what else.
>:D
Thanks to everyone who wished me and celebrated with me!
And special thanks to my chingay group for preparing birthday song and cake. :D
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
Hope B2ST enjoyed their concert!! Sad that I couldn't go. Doojoon must come back soon for me okay. :B
Outing to Sentosa with B10!
CAN'T WAIT HEEHEEHEE
That's all. ㅎㅎ